Peace in the storm...

6 weeks or so, on paper, seems like a long time. Spending every day with kids, churches, and soccer seems like a lifetime ago!

Wow, when I sit back and think about what has all occured since school started, it's kind of intimidating. I've begun and finished a varsity soccer season, gone through a season of midterms, and been hit like a brick wall with the reality of overloading in the senior year. It's been a journey. And I haven't even scratched the surface of the busy-ness of people!

It's been a good lesson on prioritizing, a good lesson on social skills, and a good lesson on self discipline. The biggest struggle has been personal time. Not just quiet, nap time, but personal, quality time in the Word, in prayer, and meditation. If someone knows the trick, let me know, because it's very convicting.

It sucks.

I realize how much easier it is to feel close with God during weeks of camp and ministry. It's easy to see God in the smiles of kids, the excitement of youth, the joy of parents. It's easy to recognize the need to 'journey in'. Why it is so difficult in this environment, I don't get it.

Just a short while ago, I made the final decision, and can start looking forward to going out west next summer/fall. It was a decision weighing on my heart for a few months, and a few people around me were aware of it all, but I mostly kept it to myself. I told myself I needed to get through the adjustment into school before I made a decision. Maybe that was a semi-conscious excuse to put it off, but the last few weeks were getting tough, and I think the burden of NOT making that commitment was wearing me down. It's funny how draining it can be to not give everything up to God!

McManus says it simply...'sometimes the most spiritual thing we can do, is to just do something.'

We get caught in this limbo here at university, knowing the future is coming, but using our current situation as an excuse to avoid a decision or leap of faith. It's draining, and the limits we put on God's faithfulness are some of the biggest chains in our own, daily lives.

So, I'm going... in His strength. It's a big process, one that requires much prayer and trust. I hope to come on board with AIA and take on a role in putting these church camps together. Why wouldn't I be excited to push this vision, equipping church's with, in my mind, one of the most effective children's ministries out there??

When?
I don't know...

Who?
I don't know...

How long?
I don't know...

Why?
Why the heck not....haha

God give me strength and perseverance, to both prepare for this journey, but also focus on what's at hand. Help me pour everything out today, tonight, tomorrow, and the next day. Help me trust. Give me peace in this storm of busy-ness.

Thank you Jesus, for leading me to this point, and I know it's only the beginning!